dinner of dragons

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 09:48:54 GMT

if anyone can think of a simple and quick [and hopefully non-degrading] job that i could do, please say, because i am in a lot of debt and need to pay it off quickly.

<3 <3

now i can be self-absorbed through you !

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 04:34:02 GMT

ok i know i've asked some of you guys to do this kind of thing before, but this one's got some different questions in it. or something. fill it out of you're bored, and if you don't know the answer to something, guess or make it up. yay !

******Opinions******

Am I sweet?-
Am I crazy?-
Am I lovable?-
Am I funny?-
Am I ugly?-
Am I psycho?-
Am I annoying?-
Am I a good person?-
Am I hot?
Am I pretty?

******Would You******

Hug me?-
Miss me if i was gone?-
Listen to my problems?-
Hug me if i cried?-
Be a good friend?-

******Would You (Same sex :) and Opposite Sex)******

F**k me if ya could or wanted too?-
Ever go out with me?-
If you already have would u do it again?-
Kiss me ((Really))?-
Marry me if u could?-
Ever talk bad about me if we ever broke up?-

******How Well Do U Know Me?******

When's my birthday?-
How old am I?-
What school do I go to?-
Do I have any siblings?-
Who is my most current ex?-
Who is my best friend?-
Who am I crushing on/dating?-
Favorite color?-
What is my worst subject?-
Best subject?-
Am I still a virgin?-
if not who was my first?
Favorite sport?-
Favorite TV show?-
Favorite song/songs?-
Favorite music group?-

******Who Am I******

What TV star do i most remind u of?-
What song would u dedicate to me?-
What famous person do I most resemble?-

******If You Could...******

Give me a new name it would be?-
Hook me up with someone(real) who would it be?(NON-MOVIE STAR)
Do one thing with me it would be?-
Drop me one piece of advice it would be?-

******Just A Few Questions******

What do u love about me?-
What do u hate about me (seriously)?-
What is my best quality?-
What is your honest opinion about me?

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 12:29:45 GMT

i figure it's time for an update or something. a proper one. yes.

my performances went well. i stuffed up the second one but i don't think anyone cared. thinking about the whole thing makes me feel exhausted, but i'm also strangely energised because i'm dying to keep my life at that exciting/challenging level. although i'm sure without proper downtime i would drive myself and everyone around me crazy. i'm glad i don't have to perform that monologue again but at the same time i'm kind of sad because y'know.. it's over. yup.

i haven't been to any indonesian classes yet. i should really go next week.

this weekend i have to decide whether i want to do an 'introduction to massage' course in yarraville.. it's 4 sessions for $47 which i think is a great deal and i've always wanted to learn. i was also thinking the other day about starting a tai chi course, and as i was thinking that i passed federation square and the electronic billboard said: free tai-chi tuesdays 7:30-8:30pm anyone want to join me ?

also: jammage should be happening soon with various humans including maybe the timmaz. i'm not sure yet though. i'm convinced he would be bored with me because he is a GROOD guitarist.

everyone worship the squirrel

i miss leeleenore. she said she would call me but she didn't. waaaaaaaaaaaaah. although i already talked to her today but yes i thought she would call me back. moop.

i fucked up my express media application form & they sent me an email saying "there was no form of payment enclosed and the credit card number field was left blank" i am a NERD. great first impression. i need to be a member in order to apply for the poetry mentorship. i hope i get it. i don't like my chances, though. i'll be happy just to get to the interview round.

i hope something happens soon in my creative world because i am itching again already.

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 12:03:54 GMT

Sunday 29th January, 1995

Today at 11 o'clock I went to the toilet and I found, I was bleeding. I had my period. I had finally reached pubity. And it happened on the right day too. Katy & Nicole were coming over! I had to wear a pad. Nicole, Katy and I said we were going round the block except we went to the bicycle track. We didn't go on the bicycle track. We went on the swings. We went back. Later on, we went back there. We met a lady with a beautiful dog. Across the main road, there are these horses. Katy really wanted to see them. We asked that lady if she could take us across the main rd. She did and we saw the horses.

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 03:25:21 GMT

YES !!! fuck you, snape !! although i'm quite disconcerted about having dated ernie macmillan... pompous ass. although i suppose he is a good bloke and he believes what harry said about voldy in the fifth book.

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 16:37:13 GMT

timmaz says:
and just before we go, ash wrote you a poem:

gauri
gaw
cow
min chow
bow
crow
buffet
tuffet

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i love ash. he is my new hero.

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 16:09:20 GMT

as of 1:59AM i now have a girlfriend. -squishes the widge-

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 15:16:23 GMT

Rusty is a Homosexual

awwww that story is SO CUTE also kinda scary.

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 14:48:09 GMT

-massive grin-

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 15:46:30 GMT

playing with the google talk google hack as posted by thekit:

"why me, Lord. Why did the CHICKEN cross the road?"

"gauri isthe sky blue? Why is the sky blue? Why is the sky blue? Why is the sky blue? Why is the sky blue? Why is the sky blue? Why is the sky blue? Why is the sky blue? Why is the sky blue? Why is the sky blue? Why is the sky blue? Why is the sky blue? Why is the sky blue? Why is the sky blue?"

ok, this is juvenile but i couldn't help it:
"my vagina is sensitive. to the needs of the poor. in spirit: for theirs is the Kingdom of the Netherlands and the world! Wide Web? Virtual Library. History of the Internet Are the same The same the same The same the same The same etc."

"save me from the Dark Side of the Web. it is not a Strategy The Keys to The Kingdom. of the Netherlands is a country of many Governments."
naughty netherlands!

"stop that you ll be Mine. You ll be Mine. etc etc etc" how creepy !

"i smell blood and an average of per capita Income for the Aged in Distress"

ok.. i will really really stop now

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 12:40:45 GMT

lookit what katy got me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love that angle. it is so weird.

i wish my skin really was this white and that there really were that many colours in my hair. the flash is my friiiieeennndd.

msn fun !

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 11:49:18 GMT

scruffypumpkin says:
quick advice point -
scruffy says:
is it 'forward' to ask someone you like for a lift?
scruffy says:
i can't figure out whether i should be doing it or not. worried i might be chasing after the poor guy...
scruffy says:
*sighs* too late, i sent the message already. sometimes our instant information culture sucks. anyway, how are you?
me says:
nah. just ask for a life.
me says:
HAHAHAHAHAH
me says:
I AM SO SORRY
scruffy says:
...huh?
me says:
i didn't mean to write that at all !!!
scruffy says:
lol

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 07:36:58 GMT

i am really happy right now.

Wed, 21 Jul 2004 16:21:25 GMT

zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie VIRUS VIRUS zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie VIRUS VIRUS zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie zombie VIRUS VIRUS WALKING IN BRAINS BRAINS OOOOH BRAAAAINS

Tue, 13 Jul 2004 06:46:19 GMT

Cancer Horoscope for week of July 8, 2004

In accordance with the astrological omens, I've assembled a host of snappy one-liners for you to wield in the coming week, Cancerian. Sooner or later, it will make sense for you to utter every one of them. 1. "It only seems kinky the first time." 2. "Even if the voices in my head aren't real, they still have some good ideas." 3. "To make your prayers come true, you have to get off your knees." 4. "I'm the good kind of bad." 5. "It's not really a party till something gets broken." 6. "Shut up and dance." (P.S.: I don't anticipate there'll be any messy consequences if you cultivate the attitude I'm suggesting here. But in case there are, invoke this disclaimer: "I didn't do it. You can't prove it. Nobody saw me.")

from http://www.freewillastrology.com

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i peed in a cup, and i do NOT have diabetes ! woohoo ! but my weewees hasn't been analysed yet. i've been given antibiotics just to see if that clears up the problem.. it could be endometriosis if it's not a urinary tract infection, and i really don't want to have endometriosis. now i'm getting little stabbing pains in my kidney which i really frustrating because i just told the doctor that i have no lower back pain. grrr.

but i no longer have low blood pressure ! yes ! my favourite !

in other news: i am in the wavs and i am tired. i ate toblerone before, which was fun, and somehow got some of it into the bag with my urine sample bottle in it. what theeee !

i remember when i was 13 i wanted my band's first album to be called "urine sample". hah !

ouch now most of my abdomen is receiving stabbing pains. why, abdomen, why !

Fri, 09 Jul 2004 09:29:29 GMT

Writing Poetry 079 H2A
Writing for Performance 089 H1
Indonesian Level 5A 084 H1
Behavioural Neuroscience 080 H1

okay i think that's fucking amazing considering the mental state i was in this semester. and i am patting myself on the back hardcore. although why those poetry fuckers couldn't give me the extra 1% to take me up to H1, i have no fucking clue. but my ma reckons they want to appear exclusive and holier-than-thou so they always grade you down. or something.

other things that happened today: damien6 & i went smith street shopping. i had this amazing organic curry pumpkin pie from a cafe and left my wallet there. YES ! so i'm at melbourne uni wanting to pay for a squash court and i can't find my wallet ! fun ! so i called up directory assistance to try and find out the number for the cafe, but i couldn't remember what it was called. i could remember the place next to it but that was apparently not enough to find out what it was called. so i called the yellow pages and they had no idea, so i got the number of the place next door, rang them and asked them to give me the number of the cafe next to them because i'd lost my wallet. they ran over, found the number and gave it to me. so sweet !!! i called up the place where i'd left my wallet and the lady who picked up was really sympathetic and told me that someone from next door had come in to look for my wallet, had looked everywhere, but couldn't find it. and i'm absolutely positive that i left it in there. so i called up commonwealth cards and cancelled both my cards.. they're giving me a new account number and all. -sigh- and it won't come for 5-7 days, they reckon, though it'll probably be more like 3. that's what it was like for damien6 and also for my sister last time she had to cancel her card. so i am stuck without funds [apart from what i can borrow from the yvillains] for the whole weekend. not a happy prospect.

squash was amazing, though. yay ! lots of fun. except something got into my pant leg and my right leg is covered in angry red bites which is so not fun. woohoo !

i'm really quite annoyed about the wallet situation, because it means i have to get a police report so i can get a free replacement student card and hopefully a free or almost-free replacement concession card. otherwise i will be annoyed.

Thu, 08 Jul 2004 08:48:48 GMT

i am absolutely starving.

i saw supersize me on tuesday night and now i won't eat any junk food and as a result i am really really hungry. haha. dinner can't be too far away though.

this keyboard is really sticky and so my fingertips feel yuck. i'm in the wavs today. i was supposed to catch up with ione today but i didn't feel up to it so i cancelled, and this morning amie rescheduled our jam to tomorrow night because she isn't feeling well. which suited me because i really wanted to see my ma.

tomorrow i will meet damien6 at 2 and do some smith street shopping, and then we are playing squash at uni. yay ! i have never played squash before. and then i'm jamming with a, of course. i hope my arm muscles aren't shot to shit after squash, otherwise i won't be able to hold/play my guitar. but i figure usually on the day unless i strain something my muscles usually aren't sore, it's the day after that's the killer.

i miss the killer. i have started calling him killinge, as in killing with an e, and damien6 started laughing when she heard me because killinge means doorhandle in hungarian. wow i really can't construct sentences right now. i had a nap, that's why. my brain is always garbled after sleep, especially when i go to bed when it's sunny and wake up when it's dark, like i did today. phwoar.

ok, i'm going to foodlist.

Wed, 07 Jul 2004 12:37:49 GMT

My Best Friend is insanity_theory

Our 24 common interests are: a perfect circle, beth gibbons, buffy, candles, elliott smith, fiona apple, happy noodle boy, harry potter, incense, jeff buckley, jhonen vasquez, kissing, love, monty python, music, pj harvey, poetry, portishead, reading, sex, singing, tori amos, writing, zoolander

Who is your best friend?

Created by macoto

that's rather accurate.

Tue, 06 Jul 2004 09:12:25 GMT

dear god,

please give me strength for tomorrow. i don't think i'll be able to deal with it on my own. i need you.

<3 g

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killy is sitting on my mobile phone. i don't want him to get a stomach tumour.

a had to cancel tonight because two of the main people who were helping her with her charity benefit have screwed her around. poor amie ! so she wasn't in any state to come over. so we're going to jam on thursday night instead. i am very disappointed about this because i was really looking forward to playing tonight. but it's no problem, i guess it'll give me more time to work on my stuff. and she definitely sounded like she needed chill-out time.

tonight lucidsavant and maybe crankyturtle if she ends up coming over & i are going to see supersize me. hopefully it's not too depressing. i am craving junk food. i think lucidsavant wants to make a spinach and potato thing so that would be good. hopefully that will kill my junk food craving.

i got my pscyh essay back, h2a. and my script, h1. i feel like i deserved more for psych but i didn't really because i did it on the day it was due, and i had so many good resources because lee-lee-nore helped me gather them. so really i didn't deserve an h1. yes. i'm tired. i'm scared about results even though i know they'll be ok.

i'm also hungry.

Mon, 05 Jul 2004 12:31:44 GMT

i am not doing the ozmodel thing any more. the whole idea of it started to creep me out intensely.

a is coming over tomorrow night to jam and i want to go to her charity thing but she hasn't rung me. i don't know if i actually want to go this time because the thought of it is making me anxious. but it would be a good thing to do. i should at least call her and ask her if we're still jamming tomorrow night, just to confirm. because she was supposed to call me tonight. i hope it's all still on because i really really want to play some music.

saw new york minute. it was, predictably, very silly, but it wasn't as enjoyable as i thought it would be. it was really just quite silly. and i didn't come out of it with the blue-skies-airheads-life-is-good feeling that i normally get from those silly teen movies. maybe i'm growing up or something. haha.

i love my new blue, green & white old lady cardigan. i am very tired. i woke up at 10:30 this morning and then went back to sleep for a couple of hours. i think i overdid the sleeping. but i've been waking up at 10:30 every morning, regardless of what time i went to bed, for way too long. so i had to try and break the pattern. scary.

i think i'd better eat something and call amie and tidy my room up a bit and see if i can do any more work on one of the songs i'm working on at the moment.

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 02:46:03 GMT

dear god,

thankyou for last night. goth music and goth people are very entertaining, and that dress we found at savers was fantastic. hurrah !

also.. that little depressive episode i had.. that was not so fun. please help me to get rid of those.

and um um um centrum a to zinc rocks me !! thankyou ! and thankyou thankyou thankyou for putting me back in touch with a in a positive & constructive and also fun way ! huzzah !

<3 g.

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i forgot how much i love goth music. heheeeee. it is so entertaining. damien6, lucid, pete and i went to abyss and met up with deathbyshinies and thekit there.

they played:
temptation - the tea party
starfuckers inc - NIN
#1 crush - garbage
more human than human - rob zombie
i don't like the drugs but the drugs like me - mazza mazza
can't you trip like i do - the chemical brothers and some other dudes who i can't remember and i'm too lazy to get the cd
red right hand [is that what it's called ?] - nick cave
fuck the pain away - peaches
the 'you spin me right round baby right round' song covered by some goth-ish band
stinkfist - tool
aaaand other stuff which i knew and other stuff which i didn't know [can't remember any more].

i wore this amazing new dress i bought today that makes me look like someone out of the 1920s, and i wore white cotton gloves and a black hat. rowr. i wish i'd taken pictures but i couldn't be bothered. i looked very scary, apparently. hurrah !

we were very goth and only turned up at 1am which i was pretty impressed about, and it was hilarious to see all these serious-looking goth kids trance-dancing and looking sexxxyyy. i love how i call them kids even though all/most looked older than me.

there was a very beautiful guy there who looked kind of glam rock-y and very vain and he was very fun to watch. he mostly had a black mohawk but also bright pink dreads tied in a ponytail just above his neck. he also had amazing pink eyeshadow on. yum.

yesterday ohyes, span and i went to savers in dandenong and spent 2-3 hours there. i bought a whole lot of awesome stuff which i will take pictures of eventually when i can be bothered. i got to sleep at 5 this morning and i woke up at 10:30. what the ! my body clock seems to be programmed to wake up at 10:30 regardless of when i got to sleep. i should try and sleep a bit before i'm due to meet ohyes and j so we can take j birthday shopping on brunswick street. i don't know how well i'm going to deal with shopping if i don't get some sleep.

20 Questions to a Better Personality

Wackiness: 34/100
Rationality: 50/100
Constructiveness: 76/100
Leadership: 56/100

You are an SECL--Sober Emotional Constructive Leader. This makes you a politician. You cut deals, you change minds, you make things happen. You would prefer to be liked than respected, but generally people react to you with both. You are very sensitive to criticism, since your entire business is making people happy.

At times your commitment to the happiness of other people can cut into the happiness of you and your loved ones. This is very demanding on those close to you, who may feel neglected. Slowly, you will learn to set your own agenda--including time to yourself.

You are gregarious, friendly, charming and charismatic. You like animals, sports, and beautiful cars. You wear understated gold jewelry and have secret bad habits, like chewing your fingers and fidgeting.

You are very difficult to dislike.

yeah right !!

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 11:44:27 GMT

dear god,

i want to spend the bulk of my time with people to whom i'm not just an interesting distraction.

gauri.

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 00:51:48 GMT

dear god,

thankyou SO much for last night. thankyou thankyou thankyou thankyou thankyou. it was amazing and substance-free so i am able to remember all of it. thankyooooou. THANKYOU. THAAANKKYOOOOOU. ok, the end.

please help me to feel that way again ! maybe even today ! at savers ! YESSS !

<3 g

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last night, life was on fire, as mitchell may puts it. went to the pirate party with lee-lee-nore and insanity_theory. dressing up was SO much fun.. i wore my usual pirate dress-ups [burghundy pants tucked into big black boots with a white shirt and one of lucidsavant's vests].. i also tied a black rag round my neck because they seemed to have a lot of those in pirates of the carribbean, and lucidsavant shoved one of her dolls heads on a stick so i carried that too. i also wore her black belt thing with rope and beads on it and stuff on my head to look like oogy pirate dreadlocks. thenn when i met lee-lee-nore she'd bought me a sword [which was unfortunately a samurai one - she hadn't realised - but she gave it to me for free because of it. hehe] and a pirate hat [which i later gave to trashplanet because we ran into her in fl street station as they were locking up - random].

so yes um.. then we went to richmond and had dinner at crust [pizza bar - i had a job interview there last year and i'm really glad i didn't get the job - it looks painful]. we had this awesome pumpkin base pizza with egg, potato, capsicum, tomatoes, bay leaves and stuff on them. YUM. i definitely recommend going there.. it's on church street near east richmond station.

anyway, then insanity_theory turned up, which was great [yay !] and we walked back to the corner and went in. we missed the first stand-up act, but we saw this AWESOME band called man bites dog.. their songs were SO funny. the first one was called "leperous scabs" [which is always a good start] and then their next was called "spelling bee girl" awwwwww. i definitely have to get their cd. then ummm i can't remember who was next, actually. we went up the front near the stage where all the pirate-y dressed people were, and k and st were there ! cos k is friends with andrew mclelland and the other guy who the fundraiser was for [lawrence] who also wants to go to edinburgh. charlie pickering was hilarious. so was eddie perfect.. imagine a guy who sounds like he belongs in a boy band/cabaret show singing comedy... wow !! i really really have to get his cd. also greg fleet was there but he wasn't on good form. i finally saw dave callan [who is k's friend too and looks like hagrid] and um um the fucksticks, who are very amusing but i don't know how funny they would be not-live. dave callan and st and their friend duff did a pirate skit which was very funny too. and then.. and then and then.. SFORZANDO WERE ON !!! YESSSSSS !!! I'VE BEEN DYING TO SEE THEM FOREVER AND EVERRRRRR ! they did a sing-along version of 'what shall we do with the drunken sailor' and also um some other song about going to south australia which i don't remember, along with the pirate shanty choir which included k and a couple of people that i met at estelle's karaoke birthday party but i couldn't remember who they were. and then they did their other stuff and it was SO good, even though i don't like punk that much. the energy was just amazing ! lee-lee-nore and i were jumping around and dancing and laughing and it was SO good. i can't even explain it. and there were these cute goth kids at the front boogie-ing and the little goth guy [who looked about 16] yelled for an encore so much that they did one, and then invited him up to sing their encore song with them. teehee. the guy who plays the fiddle is SO GOOD, oh my god. electric fiddle.. please take me now. i bought a sforzando cd too, but they're not nearly as good recorded as live. the energy isn't captured at all, and there isn't the eye candy [the guitarist is really hot in an 'i'm in a band and wear lots of black and have black hair and very pale skin and my guitar has a sticker that says fuck racism on it' way]. and yes. awww. yay !

lyrics:

"but when it comes to mary tin, i said "i'm not giving in", she's got a BA in deconstructing. i dig her sexy face, her analysis is ace, i think it's love for mary tin."

argh and there's this other awesome song that isn't on their cd and i can remember the funny bit but not the bit just before it that puts it in context.. anyway, it goes "i've got beauty in my eye and a cutlass in my neck" aw it was SO good live. i love piratey songs YES !!

ok i'd better get dressed now because i have to go really soon. dandenong & frankston savers here i come !

Wed, 30 Jun 2004 01:24:13 GMT

dear god,

help me not be so fearful ! and help me to do the work that will let more joy into my life. and please please please keep me from becoming too obsessed with fanfiction/slash. it's like staring into an abyss and if i take a step i will faaaaallll and never leave my computer. hehe. please give me strength to get on with the artist's way. i feel bad that i've neglected it this week, and also that it's taking me so long to get through your cwg book one guidebook. it's just that the exercises are so challenging, god. i am so afraid of them... i guess i must just be afraid of change because i can't think of any other reason. i know that doing them will help me but it's just so hard to get myself to. and please help me do affirmations. and oh GOD i just remembered i forgot to do my morning pages !! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ok now that that's done, i suppose i can try to forgive myself for it. i just didn't think. i can do them after i get offline. phew. phew.

today i am going on an artist's date. help this to be a fun, rewarding and joyful experience for me. also please help me to feel energised today, regardless of the grey sky and the reduced quantities of serotonin.

love,

gauri.

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this is the best usericon EVER: and belongs to tekalynn.

my heart flutters for sirius. i think i need to get out more. the harry/sirius fanlisting site thinks that my name is sally. do i correct them... ?

i just set a harry/sirius picture as my wallpaper. now my heart will flutter every time i look at it. rowrrrr. haha.

ok, i really need to find somethings else to talk about. i'm trying to find out where the evolution museum is. lucid maintains that there is one and it's somewhere in the city, and they've got a new dinosaur exhibition, or something. well.. i don't know if it's new but she saw it advertised somewhere so i suppose if they're advertising it... i don't know. my logic may be flawed. i can't find the museum on citysearch.. hmm. this makes me sad. perhaps i'm not looking in the right place.

damn.

Tue, 29 Jun 2004 10:42:39 GMT

this is SO good: order of the phoenix musical especially for people who know westside story well. it's basically all the songs but order of the phoenix-ised and it is SO funny, especially the song "the house of black". AHHAHAHAH.

oh my god. i love sirius so much. especially when he's singing. david thewlis and gary oldman are cute